My Dark Vanessa

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My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell
Reviewed by Jess
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From the outset of this book you grasp two things immediately: 1) that Vanessa is clearly a loner and an outsider and 2) she’s clearly in need of some serious help - way more than she’s currently getting.

“At Browick, he said... I was the first student who put the thought in his head. There was something about me that made it worth the risk.”

From start to end this is one of the most unsettling things I’ve ever read. One night I was putting it away and thinking, I need a BREAK!!! But the next night I’d stay up til 1am unable to put it down. A lot of Vanessa’s story is borderline nauseating to read - especially her time in the classroom with her teacher/groomer/abuser - but also deeply thought provoking. In Vanessa’s world this is an extremely adult relationship, one of love and trust and desire, but we know it’s one of coercion and control and manipulation. It’s so difficult to know she’s denying this trauma but even worse to see that she sees it as so vital to her life. There’s a huge gulf between you as the reader and Vanessa, so you never quite connect. You’re always looking in, helpless.

I think that’s maybe what Kate Elizabeth Russell intended to convey; the hold abusers have on their victims, and how often there’s nothing anyone else can do to help til they want to help themselves overcome feelings they’ve thought were real for so long. It forces you as a reader to suspend your judgement of Vanessa, something which we can afford to give all women who have been through any type of abuse when they come forward, no matter the time or place. I couldn’t truly rate this book because it’s unlike anything I’ve read before (yes, even Lolita!) but I’m giving it 5 for the hold it still has on me months after I read it.

Jess Pancholi

I’ve got to start this off by thanking Linda for putting together this amazing group of ladies who I love dearly! Linda was my uni/PhD wife for 8 solid years and books were one of the many things that bound us together - pun intended! I really think our book family is amazing, diverse and we really influence each other to push our reading boundaries (and crack each other up with our banter and jokes haha!) The family extends to you followers too - and we are just getting started!

According to everyone in my family and numerous home movies I was forever reading books.  Spot the Dog and anything Beatrix Potter were my jam. They say your love of reading never dies and I can absolutely say that is true! The books might be more grown up but I’m still there, book in hand (and snacks to boot!) ready to lose myself in a story.I can’t say for sure what my preferred genre of book is - I’ve read everything from biographies to epic modern novels and classic tales too - and of course as a scientist I dabble in a little popular sci lit on the side. I’m always willing to try something wacky and weird, even if I don’t like it in the end but I guess that’s why I’m part of The Candid Book Club, eh?

If you asked me to recommend some books to you, I would say that Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy is my absolute favourite ever; its worth it, I promise!I also love: Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli (shout out if you read this in high school - it’s YA that really sticks with you) Brave New World by Aldous Huxley The Good Immigrant edited by Nikesh Shukla (this is ESSENTIAL reading) Sputnik Sweetheart by Haruki Murakami A Little Life by Hanyayan Agihara, Yes Please by Amy Poehler. And of course- The Tale of Jemima Puddleduck by Beatrix Potter

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